It’s been about 6 weeks, I haven’t weighed myself yet, but this is what I look like atm
Living with so many contradictions
I'm a mum, I'm opinionated, I'm recently seperated, I believe in love, I'm a submissive, I dont take hints, I'm in control, I'm random, I find fun anywhere, I'm tattooed and pierced, I'm a child at heart, I look after everyone.....I am me!!!
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I’m soooo sick, I wish Lj had finished work already cause I want company besides Toby
My little man decided he wanted his nails painted
Sigh
We (Lj, Toby & I) went to Ripley’s believe it or not on Sunday. It was a very good day, Toby wasnt overly interested, so we put him in the pram & gave him my mobile with a movie on it & he was happy. One of the first things we saw in the museum was 2 fertility statues with a sign saying “if you aren’t afraid to have a baby, touch the statues”. Lj looked at me, broke out in a big grin & touched the statues, then he looks at me & says ‘I’m not scared’. Of course I can’t resist a challenge, do I touch them. I’m using the mirena as contraception & I haven’t had a period in 18 months, I woke up this morning with my thighs covered in blood. I am mildly concerned, so I’m finding out my sisters female doctor to get the mirena checked. I’m not quite sure I believe I’m pregnant, but I’d like to find out why I’m bleeding
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Well that was depressing, just had a phone conversation with the main guy I was sleeping with (Zac) between my ex & Lj. I had to tell him I couldn’t play anymore because I am with Lj
He’s such a sweetie & he was good about it, but I felt bad even though I want Lj
:)
My girl moment was all for nothing, Lj called me to ask how my day was. He called me sweetness…I love how he makes me feel. I know it hasn’t been long since I left my husband, but I’ve never felt like this with anyone. He just looks at me & I melt, I love it when he touches me. He likes looking at me, it makes me feel like there is no one else around. He also adores Toby, he looks at Toby & thinks he’s just a little man. He wants his own kids, but he loves my monster. I wish he was here now, but he is very tired from work & he promised to come round tomorrow
Girl moment
So I’m totally having a girl moment right now & freaking out that Lj doesn’t want to be with me & my mind made it all up…I hate being a women sometimes
My poor legs are so sore, especially my right calf. But otherwise I’m feeling more energized & excited during the day, just because I go for a 3km walk in the morning. I’m under my calories everyday for the last week so far
